My past is catching up to me I cant escape it Theres a lot that still needs addressing And further explanations Swear to god I gave my all until I couldn't take it I know I'm in the wrong I got involved in Things I knew were dangerous And now I pay the cost These demons on my case Most the time feel like I'm lost Or at least out of place But in the midst of the applause It feel like I'm okay Make me feel like I'm a boss With that look on her face My year started with a loss That caused me lots of pain But that okay it showed me all the things I got to change My ways caught up to me But I ain't gonna take the blame How am I to give it to you raw While trynna play it safe I do this day by day Best believe I've made mistakes Recipe for danger pain And ecstasy that quickly fades Rest in peace to who I was Soon I'll change who I've become Never stop growing I'll look back at this and think its dumb I have just begun I got a lot to go I will not succumb to what I can't control I do it till its done And not a second less Hella stressed Heart is on the run My mind won't let me rest I like the tingle on my feet While walking through the sand I like the little things And how they help me understand Breaking bad way before I probably should've fam But thats okay Cuz I grew up to be a wanted man I put effort time and money in To make it work I gave everything I had Not even half returned But I kept going down this path And made my dad concerned He fears I'm going way too fast And that I'll crash and burn He say I need to go back to college I can't concur Cuz fuck a class that teaches shit that I don't have to learn And fuck the school They do not care beyond the cash they earn And fuck the system Trynna put me between last and first My dad gone say the songs suck Once I say fuck Sometimes I gotta let it out To stay calm Its out of hand Like a brain When they face palm I slap a fan If they dare to get my name wrong I act first And think second When I'm dealt a dual I throw dirt Then throw a fit when I am told the truth I've been worse I've been better I've been self removed I'm still hurt I still get up Trynna self improve We read each other like a book But now she just a chapter This ain't no fairy tale No happily ever after A dagger in the spine Will make you think twice I sit tight smoking on this loud so I can sleep right I pass my days With passing jays While on the way To greater states of mind I'm just living my life I said I pass my days With passing jays While on the way To greater states of mind Bitch I'm just living my life I pass my days With passing jays While on the way To greater states of mind I'm just living my life I said I pass my days With passing jays While on the way To greater states of mind Bitch I'm just living my life I pass my days With passing jays While on the way To greater states of mind I'm just living my life I said I pass my days With passing jays While on the way To greater states of mind Bitch I'm just living my life